I woke up this morning thinking about all the original Star Trek movies and series I watched. I felt a tinge of sadness, and I wasn't sure why. I had watched the original Star Trek TV series and movies since it began in the early 1960's when I was a very young child, all the way through to now, to current years.
in the 1960's, Star Trek was made during a time that my world and our world and our generation were changing. It was a time the Beatles singing group was made popular, it was a time of everyone talking about real love on all levels, and much more. The creator of Star Trek, Gene Roddenberry and his tv series at that time of the original cast and crew, his TV series was about "Exploring new places and going where no man has gone before...." Well, to Gene Roddenberry, the Star Trek platform meant so much more. it wasn't just about exploring new planets and finding new races, it was also about the interaction between any people, any culture, any race. It showed the successes and the difficulties at times when various peoples look at things differently in life, and what matters to them.
It was about the famous kiss back then between a white man and a black woman (Captain Kirk and Uhura) and interracial couples. It was about love on all levels. It was about accepting people even if they were different from us (Spock and ever alien the crews of Star Trek encountered). And even later it revealed the acceptance of Gays like everyone else, as we learned in later years that Geore Takei was gay in real life. Those who love Star Trek from the beginning, now all realised "Who cares if George was gay." We loved Star Trek from the beginning, and still do even now until this day.
Yet, I realised I felt sadness when I finished watching all the Star Trek movies from beginning ones to the end one. Why did I feel that way? It was sadness about times come and gone, and people who had come and gone. Deforrest Kelly who played the original "Bones" (the doctor) on Star Trek had passed on. And James Doohan that played the original "Scotty" had also passed on.
Even from "The Next Generation" would no longer have the full or original cast. Brent Spiner who played "Data" said he will never again play Data because he feels he is too old now, and "Data wasn't suppose to age." All the original cast and crews of the original Star Trek and the Next Generations would no longer be there to make a movie of everyone there now. Time marches on.
Then I had to ask myself this morning, why did I feel so sad about Star Trek and all it's crews, that they would never all be there again? Was that the real thing I was thinking about deep inside?
Or was it the fact that I realised that whether it was the original Star Trek Crew or the Beatles singing group, these part of my life growing up. So what really was the sadness? Or did it have to do with my own life, and grieving for the years gone by that we can never get back this time around?
Because as I looked at the original crew of Star Trek and the movies, and every time I still listen to the Beatles, even though John Lennon and George Harrison are now passed on, I realised these were people and things that mattered to me over the years. People and things I grew up, that seemed a part of me and learning and happiness.
So what was it again? It was also realizing that I am now 57 years old myself. And I look how fast time flies. It's ironic. As a kid because of my homelife, I couldn't wait until I was 16. Then I couldn't wait until I was 21. Then when I turned 25, I was married with three kids and a budding career as a Freelance Writer and Newspaper Columnist. I cried when I turned 25, because I felt when I was 25, I wanted to be married, have my children, and I wanted my career to be established by then. And while I was married and had my children, my career was not yet fully established. So I cried that I had not made my own self determined deadline back then when I turned 25. Now at age 57, I think "Wasn't I silly? Didn't I realise how much more to life there is?"
Did I cry back then because I felt I hadn't accomplished all I wanted to at age 25? Or did I cry because I was heading close to age 30. And in my generation when we were young, age 30 was thought to be very old. Again, at age 57 now I think to myself, "Boy weren't we silly?!!"
As the years went by, I learned and experienced alot more. And now at age 57, I remember some of George Harrison's last words some years before he passed on: "From age 17 to age 56, it goes by just like that" as he snapped his fingers. And now at age 57, I realise how true his words are. I remember, also, when I was in nursing, I took care of a woman who was 105. I asked her, "What does it feel like to be 105?" She answered, "Oh honey, you always feel the same inside. You just watch your body get older and fall apart is all." How true her words are too!!
We stay the same people on the inside, the Spritual body's of ours on the inside. But we continue to learn.... Looking back on my life as a child growing up, and at both my husbands, I realised my troubles and sorrows growing up were caused by the choices of other people when I was a child. How they chose to relate to me. Things they said or didn't say to me. How I always felt "Thrown away" by family. And keeping my spirit busy talking to God thru this life's journey since I was 3 years old and before, and keeping my mind busy in this world learning and seeing life and people, and choices I made and that others made, it is what it is. And I am so grateful to God being with me all my life, and being with all my family and friends all their lives, too.
I am grateful for the years. I am grateful for being able to watch and learn the lessons in life I have learned. I am mostly Grateful to God who never abandoned me. I am grateful to my life now, even having been diagnosed with a lung disease. I miss my adult kids. I miss my Grandkids.
I appreciate the time we do have together, whether it be talking on the phone or in person. Or reading what they put on Facebook. I've learned thru time and space how to love people no matter what their race is. I've learned to love people no matter what age they are and all life on the Planet. I've learned how important it is to love one another and how to accept one another for who they really are.
One of my questions remains, "Can family and friends now love me and accept me for who I really am? or will they ignore and throw me away too? Will they create me to be what they think I am in their own imaginations or want me to be?" Only they can answer that. Only they can choose to get to know me myself, for who I am. I then realised the same thing was for God. Will we get to know God Himself, for who He is Himself?
I've come to understand the words of King Solomon when he said, "Anyone who thinks they know something, let them think they know nothing." While here on life's journey, most of us see one another for who we appear on the outside to other people and them to us. But who are we all really on the inside? Will humanity finally start to see one another mind to mind, spirit to spirit, heart to heart in a peaceful and loving way? I think and believe all things are possible. Not only for humanity, but with God.
I watched Star Trek's newest movie. I think it should have won an award. It was simply called "Star Trek", and it featured a new cast and crew of a time before the original Captain Kirk and Spock I grew up watching in the 1960's. This movie was wonderful, in that it showed the young characters of the original Star Trek crew played by other actors and actresses. It gave a sense of meeting them all over again for the first time and what their home life was like growing up before they were on the Starship Enterprise. The movie had the original Spock, Leonard Nimoy on it. And he gave this new movie a send off with his blessing as well as being in the movie.
The movie gave a renewed sense of hope, and of excitement for the journey ahead. It has a new time line now, so a new anything is possible. It made me realise, I am still here in this world. And my time isn't done yet either. I still have many new journeys and days ahead of me.
Truly, each day is a "present". Each day is a gift to us from the Creator. Each day we wake up, we have a new opportunity to make choices that will affect us, and affect others in our lives. Whether it be old family and friends, to new family and friends; neighbors and others we may meet along life's journey each day.
I want to meet each new day with a smile and of love and loving others in a kind and decent way. It is still keeping God with me where ever I go and talking to Him. It is letting him in my life to help me make choices. That doesn't mean following man made doctrines. But talking to God Himself. I can talk to God myself. So can you!!
So now as we dance thru tme and space each day, even here on Planet Earth, with God we can look at the future with renewed hope. And we can look at our pasts here on earth and the people and things that mattered to us, and hold them dear in our hearts and remember, and take them forward with us. Whether it be peoples, things, memories, lessons learned, pets, family, friends, live. God and all Humanity.
I've learned alot in my journey here in this world so far. What have you learned? Not just about me, but about you? What memories do you hold dear and take with you as you go forward in life? Have you enjoyed this Dance of Thoughts and Words I have shared today? Are you enjoying your Dance thru time and space, on your life's journey? I hope you are! I hope you wake up and look at each day with a renewed sense of being and inspiration! :-)
"You can't turn back the clock. But you can wind it up again." - Bonnie Prudden
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